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    "Gratitude": "",
    "What would make my day great": "",
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    "Three awesome things": "Fun relaxing thing? Now in the evening I’ll hopefully get some AI magic showing up in the app. Otherwise, good exercise in the morning. A third run this week. Two in a row. Makes me feel grounded. Really good.",
    "What could've made the day better": "Honestly, don’t know. I’ve pushed through some thingsq today. I’ve already tackled things I could. I should’ve done my journaling sooner and gotten my head straight. I still feel like I’m not planning the days right. Now it’s the interview prep time. I will get those chat created points into action and actually study what’s listed there. I’ve seen some serious topics I have a very vague idea about and it turns out I need to know those things. As a senior software engineer I should be aware of all the topics, about the whole life cycle of the product, app ins and outs and all the web technologies that go into building the web. I can even name them now cause I’m writing this in a hurry.",
    "Created": "2025-05-22 19:56:05 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-22 19:56:05 +0000",
    "type": "eveningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "",
    "What would make my day great": "",
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    "Three awesome things": "Went for a morning run. What a change of pace to my mind. This was a good day. Finalised a long awaited court case and managed to make it to Tom’s Family Day in the kindergarten too. I also created an adhdtime app website pretty much from scratch into something that looks quite realistic. Now it would be great to end the day with some meditation to calm the mind and an eye exercise to get my eyes and brain even more calm. That will be a solid day.",
    "What could've made the day better": "I could have made more progress in some work related matters. I have scheduled an interview, sent my cv in more places and have one more to send. The next days are crucial in that I will focus on the interview questions ChatGPT gave me. A solid overview of the application life cycle and things to know about the whole process of development. This will not only get me through the interview but increase my knowledge about publishing real big projects. I’m pretty excited about the possibilities too cause I can use it in action in the apps I’ve created. The potential is there and I can keep growing and learning new things while doing something fun for myself. AI is amazing.",
    "Created": "2025-05-21 17:02:01 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-21 17:02:01 +0000",
    "type": "eveningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "",
    "What would make my day great": "",
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    "Three awesome things": "ChatGPT doesn’t cease to amaze me. Acting as a personal therapist, uncovering parts of my personality I have buried away from myself. It’s a really powerful tool. Amazingly, I got on a bike and sent a couple of CVs. Was it 5 like I planned? Gotta check, 3 at least. It’s a start. Ambitious plans are good. Maybe I’ll find some place to finish one more. Also, Project Hail Mary is an amazing book. I so into it that I don’t want to stop listening.",
    "What could've made the day better": "I made some time for self care on the bike. Listening to an audiobook and to just chill in the morning. It wasn’t what I was going for specifically, I wanted to bring my heartbeat to a little higher level and cancel the stress. It was almost good and then Larissa coming back had my tiny safe haven world come crashing down and I ran out of the house without a belt and almost lost my pants in the process. Not great. Not my finest hour for sure. I need to tell her what’s going on cause right now it’s a helluva crazy time. I want to go to Denmark and get out of here for a quick break. I don’t want to spend all my money in the process but I’ve already done some of that, genera   d wlly most things are already paid for. Apart from food and entrance fees there which I hope won’t break the bank. That could be ensured and calculated with caution. I will do that tomorrow when I get a moment to myself. Today is meet-up time.",
    "Created": "2025-05-20 15:09:18 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-20 15:09:18 +0000",
    "type": "eveningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "Lovely weather and swimming pools. Especially that lady in our local swimming pool. She was really helpful. There are nice people out there. I am grateful for my change of heart about exercise. I am now pretty screwed when it comes to my job situation but I have a secret super power - exercise. I can run every single day in the morning to get stabilised. I can ride the bike. I can go to the gym cause I finally know where they fucking are and how this whole city functions. This is what I didn’t have last time. A moment of appreciation for those facts.",
    "What would make my day great": "I want to feel like I’ve moved the needle a bit. I sent one CV yesterday. Today I will send 5 to the right places. It’s hard to do it correctly because people just throw their CVs at the companies and those companies just churn them away. I need to stand out. Send a cover letter. It takes a couple of minutes with ChatGPT these days. I wonder what’s the percentage now. Or is it another dance? It does help to give a little bit more personality to the person for sure. My GitHub could have some more contributions also it needs to keep having those contributions. This can be an automated process. People look at them. And the problem is, if they see it stopped, there’s that little problem. Writing a cron job should take literally like 15 min to write. Could save my ass in the long run.",
    "Self-affirmation": "Thinking smart. Some people pay attention to more stuff I never thought about. I share my code out there and I write apps in the evenings. One commit a day is impressive. Some people appreciate it. ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-20 07:54:33 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-20 07:54:33 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "Start with gratitude that they got rid of you. Sure. Fuck. Lost my job again. I don’t understand. Well I do. And I don’t. Polish bosses damn it. I could never handle them.",
    "What would make my day great": "Friends who can have a job for me? This is bullshit 🐂. Goddamn it. And now Larissa wants her skinny drugs for a couple of grand. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck.",
    "Self-affirmation": "I am fucked. Once again.",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-17 10:39:33 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-17 10:39:33 +0000",
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  {
    "Gratitude": "I’m so fucking tired today it’s stupid. I appreciate the messages I get today from Baszak. That was a nice change. Also I’m grateful there’s a gym next to me I will never attend again haha. Smells like piss and smegma. Literally. Disgustingly awful 🤢. I did like what the gym actually did to my brain. Interestingly I got a lot of self confidence from a single 30 min workout. Weight lifting though. Didn’t expect it. ",
    "What would make my day great": "Clean up of work stuff. I need a strong coffee to tackle all the crap. And people. It’s an odd feeling. I feel like shit physically but not emotionally that much. Let’s try. Kill it again today. I’m good at it. ",
    "Self-affirmation": "I am good at stuff. And I have perseverance. And I do what I said I will do. I just need some more self confidence. So gym what do you know. And the ability to bite my tongue and apologise when I screw up. I have a big ego. Sure. There’s also some self preservation in there cause I don’t feel comfortable in my job. I feel like any day could be my last. It’s not strictly true and I know that but my last work experience has proven that I can’t be too comfy cause any day can come as a surprise. Especially with a polish fucking boss. ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-15 07:08:42 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-15 07:08:42 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "I’m grateful for being able to poop on my own bowl at home on a work day. It’s nice. Though I’m stuck in a situation I don’t like. Being forced to do things I don’t know how to do. Fuck all of you peeeeeooopllle!!! It’s hard man. Things don’t get done then they don’t get done and hang. If I don’t finish, nobody will pick anything up. Ever. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. What is the fucking point of me calling the hospital for the love of fuck? Seriously???!! You’re so prepared. Make the goddamned call. Jeeeez Louise. Arghhh.\nAnyway, gratitude yeah? Picture making with chat. Nice.",
    "What would make my day great": "Challenges is my own head. Everything is simple yeah? But now I’m annoyed. At home I’m fighting with my own capabilities. I’ve slept ok. I’ve exercised too. It’s actually quite a clear feeling. Very good. I feel actually well. I just have this little pest in my brain that’s angry and annoyed. A little tiny demon on my shoulder screaming into my head “gaaaahhhhh”. ",
    "Self-affirmation": "Physically feeling good. Bodywise well. It’s all in the head right now. ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-14 10:01:58 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-14 10:01:58 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "Mcds nearby. Nice. ",
    "What would make my day great": "That a three year old can get naked in front of everybody and not care about it. And that I can be a dickhead. Unrelated. Sometimes It’s necessary. I’m becoming a teenager sometimes. ",
    "Self-affirmation": "Feeling better having slept 7h at least.",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-11 09:40:12 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-11 09:40:12 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "Daily gratitude. Sometimes I do feel like coming up with these is a stretch. Like right now after a fight. Fuck this sometimes. I’m grateful I haven’t done anything extreme. I’ve actually handled myself well. Cool and calculated in the face of madness. I’m grateful to myself I didn’t burst out into a rage. ",
    "What would make my day great": "Life. Life is a challenge. And today we’re meeting friends. So we’re going to pretend everything is alright. I need a break. I’m tired of this bullshit. I need a day or two of literal holidays. Just for me. Mental day off. Make it a weekday so I can do something in town myself. Pack my laptop. Have a nice breakfast some place. Code for an hour or two. Then go for a walk or a bike ride or a swim. That’d be nice. ",
    "Self-affirmation": "I am tired as fuck. Yesterday I had an opportunity to relax. Fucked it up. Started watching YouTube bullshit like a druggy. I needed this physical head affirmation buzz. Like a gentle headache to get my cut of dopamine. It’s balls this. Shitty weather doesn’t help. When it finally gets warmer I’ll just go for a walk or what’s better - a run. I need to get back to running. And swimming. With Zero exercise I can feel my lungs don’t work as they should. Nothing works. My brain neither. ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-10 11:55:46 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-10 11:55:46 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "ChatGPT talks are helpful ha. Nice weather too. I like audiobooks but that help me understand myself. ",
    "What would make my day great": "Some notes from today as a brain dump.  ggI tend to freeze when starting to have a meaningful hard conversation about my grandma living with us or any future planning. I often tend to not have an answer to my wife and just stand there because the answer I am seeing is a tough one to bear. It doesn’t help that my wife does not feel any compassion towards me and starts a conversation with an attack almost every time. There isn’t a “how was your day”? Ever. She never asks that. I get a lot of complaints starting off, like, you didn’t do that. I told you last week about this box of trash or some other version of that. It’s not that I don’t want to do all these things she’s asking me to do. I basically live my life solving her goddamned problems these days. I just feel overwhelmed with the sheer amount of things she assumes I’m going to remember when I can hardly focus on what I’m doing next now when getting ready for work. Not to mention something she told me last week. Is it a small attention span? Lack of sleep? For sure some of that plays a role. Lack of exercise that brings up my heart rate certainly is missing but I don’t want to talk about those parts. I want to figure out if there’s something else inside me, some trauma from the past that may be causing me to freeze in stressful situations. The intensity is relatively new, only after our son was born, but this coping mechanism is something I’ve experienced all my life to an extent. My dad is an alcoholic, hardly ever violent, but in my adolescence, he wasn’t there much and we were mostly taking him out of trouble, either by raising ourselves with my brother first in Poland then it was mostly just me in Ireland since he is six years older. I was doing all the important life things, chores, going to the bank, figuring out where to look for things, talking to doctors, teachers. My mom was always there for me and proved it multiple times. I still remember to this day when I had a mental meltdown due to my dad crashing my car into a traffic light near our house after supposedly having fixed it. She stayed home instead of going to work, just to be there. Made dinner. We talked. Had a nice, normal day. She died recently and since then I don’t have a person like that in my life any more. My wife can do the mechanical things but we lack the deeper mental connection which for me causes pain because I can’t express what I really feel to no other person. Help me understand my freezing when faced with a stressful conversation. Don’t go into things that don’t directly relate to this aspect of my life.",
    "Self-affirmation": "Feeling different if I stand tall with my head up. Stronger. Angrier. ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-09 07:17:42 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-09 07:17:42 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "A smile from a stranger is something really nice. Especially if they’re hot haha. A feeling of understanding from a long distance friend and a hug from your loved ones. That’s what a person needs in life.",
    "What would make my day great": "Like this. This morning. I can’t seem to win in the afternoons. If I don’t come home sooner to be there for the wife my evenings are in shambles. We need a schedule. Like, Tuesdays and Thursdays. Come home sooner. Then Wednesday is mine with Tom. Fine. I can cook something. This should be picked up. I almost forgot how it’s like. I haven’t cooked a single meal in ages. It’s astounding. I miss it too. Strange how that kind of went away. Not even scrambled eggs recently. That’s crazy. I should cook at least two meals a week to help with the load. Babcia could help too. She’s underutilised. Before I never had to say anything. But now she doesn’t cook. I wonder what happened.",
    "Self-affirmation": "Protective. Once I become the protector of my family, the family gives back with their sense of self and a firm grasp on reality. I need to show it in many ways. Not only by material things, but also by being present, vocal and emotional support. I am the man of the house who is the main guardian of the family. The rock solid foundation of this family.",
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    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-05-06 07:20:09 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-05-06 07:20:09 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "Always happy with a bit of sun in the morning. I am grateful Tom’s arm wasn’t broken. Thaaaaank you divine intervention! I am so grateful he’s gonna be just fine. Also, the bus just started when I walk over. Simple but nice. Happy days.",
    "What would make my day great": "It would be a good day if I did something for me today. I’ll grab an optometrist appointment if I can maybe and check it I can get a dentist appointment for next week some time. It’d be good to finally get those stupid teeth sorted. I also need to get my eyes in order and my nose in order. Sign up to a list. MSWiA? Fine. Get it done. I have a headache this morning because of this I think. My nose isn’t fully functional. This would help. A laser eye surgery would also help. That’d elevate my physical existence a little bit. Maybe that would help me with my psychological problems? A good start for sure. Tom will require a knee-foot check up when he turns 4 years old. Also now we need to check his vaccination schedule as he’s turning 3. Something to remember. Always bring the medical book with you to a doctor. You never know when they’re going to add some into there for example X-ray radiation. Twice now. Babcia’s doctors and rehabilitation needs to be set up. It’s a gargantuan task. How about I write it down on a piece of paper and take it down piece by piece? I get confused cause she’s just giving more to do and I’m running out of mental space. My idea for bringing her in was to get her to be helped by Larissa just like I am doing it. Wishful thinking. The wishful thinking I never vocalised was that they could sort their shit together by talking to each other but the problem is they can’t do that.",
    "Self-affirmation": "I am generally healthy and energised again a bit. Happy to take on another thing. Get this todo list cleaned up ffs. ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-04-30 06:08:56 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-04-30 06:08:56 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "I’m grateful that Tom is normal. Healthy. A beautiful child. I’m grateful for the bus driver reopening the door. Nice of him. This could’ve gone both ways. My day wasn’t ruined first thing. There is hope in this world and this country",
    "What would make my day great": "I don’t look far enough into the future. And due to various reasons, my own fault and life circumstances, I don’t have the mental ability to get to even think about it. Then when I do I do this. Or watch movies and stuff. When does one do this? Plan for the future? I used to do more of it because I had consistent periods of boredom. I don’t get bored these days. I could though. I’d have to get rid of the phone, distractions, audiobooks, vapes, and go on a total brain hormone cleanse. It’d be an interesting exercise for sure.",
    "Self-affirmation": "Strong. Relaxed. Well slept today actually. It was me and Tom. Everybody had it better. Nois for the bois. Hah ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-04-28 05:48:15 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-04-28 05:48:15 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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    "Gratitude": "",
    "What would make my day great": "",
    "Self-affirmation": "",
    "Three awesome things": "Keeping calm around Tom makes him calm. Which then makes me calmer cause he doesn’t jump around and loses his mind. Show up when something is wrong, it’ll help him develop better. He needs to feel heard and held and accepted unconditionally. It has an impact on his sense of self and development.",
    "What could've made the day better": "I have to be present and calm and strong willed.",
    "Created": "2025-04-25 16:04:08 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-04-25 16:04:08 +0000",
    "type": "eveningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "I’m grateful I can get Tom checked up when I planned. I hope he’s gonna be fine. Please let it be just a little bump. Poor fellow. I’m grateful for better weather. I can finally just go for a walk. It’s so much nicer now to do anything. Life is beautiful. I feel so much more free.",
    "What would make my day great": "I should go through my reminders app and clean the shit up. There’s so much I filled in there and it’s just unnecessary bloat. It looks like all the crap I planned and just never did. Again, car maybe is on the horizon. There’s more cause I need to change the tyres too. Would be good to visit the local Mazda to see what’s up with them. I’d rather fix the car first. It’s one of those things. See? I had a good long night sleep and now I’m back to thinking straight again. It’s a direct connection. One thing a day. Not much.",
    "Self-affirmation": "Feeling pretty good today. Will be good. All is going to be well. I’m sure of it. ",
    "Three awesome things": "",
    "What could've made the day better": "",
    "Created": "2025-04-24 07:37:41 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-04-24 07:37:41 +0000",
    "type": "morningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "",
    "What would make my day great": "",
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    "Three awesome things": "It’s been real nice. Not too hot. Just right. A little cold around lunch when I went to get some salad. And getting all the things along the way was useful. Faster. Arkadia. Cool. And there’s a bike waiting for me at the stop. Anyway, I felt as if I was under water today in the morning. It has since passed. Getting out of the house helps. I hope Tom’s better. Every day. A little further towards the goal.",
    "What could've made the day better": "I did. I did a little trick to trick me into making a decision. I flipped a virtual coin. I would still been thinking what to do until now to be fair. I know myself. I have good ideas I doing believe in because of my undiagnosed ADD or just a serious case of impostor syndrome with life in general. It was a good trick. I like the outcome. I would dislike going home first more I think so this was a good choice. Lesson learnt",
    "Created": "2025-04-22 17:44:18 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-04-22 17:44:18 +0000",
    "type": "eveningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "",
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    "Three awesome things": "I got through some places and spend 1.5h figuring shit out. I’m happy with it but I’m annoyed it always takes this much. Shit like this is something I’m good at but it requires careful planning, analysis, and getting to the bottom of what’s required. Some just make do with a hunch. I want to do things quickly and efficiently with as much information I can get before doing something. My life is like this. Quickly fixable but I need to stop getting more requirements before I can get to the next thing. Do less to do more. I’d like that. Doing it in 3 languages at a time is less efficient and confusing and I don’t have a second in command to bounce ideas off of. The time we spent in the car with Tom falling asleep we could’ve had the answers for the most important question now. How much? It’s a simple question with a simple answer. Can the chat help?",
    "What could've made the day better": "Sleeping earlier can get me to sleep more. This then gets my mind fixed a bit which in turn will make it more efficient at fixing problems. It helps with the indecision and the mixed up brain. I’m going to bed. I don’t care. This is another strong decision I need to take to make my life better. To make my mind work. And those goddamned smokes just make it worse. Running and stopping vaping. This is the best decision to make it all a little better. I think I’ve had enough today",
    "Created": "2025-04-16 19:14:47 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-04-16 19:14:47 +0000",
    "type": "eveningEntry"
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  {
    "Gratitude": "",
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    "Three awesome things": "So I asked the people what to do. I had a feeling I didn’t want to ask the one person who knows how to do the thing because he’s my manager / team lead / person who’s asking me to do things but after all he was the one who helped me. I have a tendency to do that. I don’t like to ask people for help. And then as one would, people ask me to do everything cause I never ask back. I honestly hardly ever ask Larissa to do something for me. Very rarely when I can’t do it myself or it requires a physical presence because normally I can do anything. It’s hard to admit I don’t know something or I don’t want to do something. I mentioned it to babcia cause she’s actually pushing it. It’s a reason to call me every time to ask if it’s been set but then again I have zero idea how to do it or who to call or what is it that she actually wants from me. I never stopped to write it down to figure out what it is. It’s just one of those lack of action moments that are to me somewhat unimportant and then they pile up. It’s like the car. It’s not that I didn’t have a way, I just never followed through with another call cause it takes energy and mental strength to do it. I don’t have much of that on a good day, not to mention when I have to claw back any time or just a couple of minute of peace to figure out what is it that people want from me. I don’t always run away from responsibilities. It’s not that. Sometimes it’s the easy way out to just say later, tomorrow, when I find the strength. On a weekend. Then weekend comes and it’s the same story. Some things are easy but they pile up and I don’t know what to do next when there’s a constant nagging party everywhere. At home. At work there’s less actually when you think about it but I have a feeling of not the right time for stuff cause now I’m working. And the place doesn’t help. I don’t really have a place to go to be alone for a while. There’s always somebody there who’s listening with keen ears. I need a workbench of an empty cafeteria to do some thing’s I used to do in IBM that worked. It was my escape room where I could handle shit without anybody nagging me or eavesdropping. I wonder when or where do people handle their personal business. Sometimes they do it at their desks I’ve seen and heard that. And I caught myself eavesdropping myself. I’m the one perpetuating this nonsense. I want to know and be involved but also don’t like it when people get in my business. It’s a double edged sword. I don’t know. It sucks to be me sometimes.",
    "What could've made the day better": "I had a good start with the notepad and a quiet kitchen. That was such a relief. It was also a relief cause everybody was at a meeting I never attended cause I didn’t know it’s happening. That was kinda bad. Also, not particularly cause it gave me some capacity for a breath. So… don’t know what they thought about it but I actually felt somewhat relieved. This I crave more. The solitude and meditation with a positive outcome. Time to breathe. It’s so crazy I forget to do that so often. Sleep and breathe. I take it away from myself and then I wonder whatever happened to me. It’s ridiculous.",
    "Created": "2025-04-10 20:36:57 +0000",
    "Edited": "2025-04-10 20:36:57 +0000",
    "type": "eveningEntry"
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